Stop Reading About What You Cannot Fix

I keep searching the internet for more information about diagnosis, treatment, and recurrence. I do not meet with the surgeons until Thursday, June 2nd so I won't know the extent of my diagnosis until I meet with them. Has it spread to my lymph nodes? What stage is it? I know what grade it is, but there is so much more. I keep reading these stories from women about their experiences, but all of our bodies are unique and respond differently. I am really freaked out and can only go one day at a time.